
It is ten years already since the passing of Seamus Heaney. His final message – noli timere, be not afraid – is with me always, in a little heart shaped amulet that I carry everywhere.
It is tempting to surround our heroes in fluffy pink clouds of admiration, as if they represent nothing but bluebirds and roses and charming one liners that would look great on a coffee mug. But our poets illuminate the essentials of life that are otherwise felt but unseen – both the shadows and the sunbeams.
Here is a small excerpt from Heaney’s Nobel lecture, where he describes our desire to re-tune the world, and how this endeavor requires space for both the marvelous and the murderous.
…there are times when a deeper need enters, when we want the poem to be not only pleasurably right but compellingly wise, not only a surprising variation played upon the world, but a re-tuning of the world itself…
Only the very stupid or the very deprived can any longer help knowing that the documents of civilization have been written in blood and tears… the inclination is not only not to credit human nature with much constructive potential, but not to credit anything too positive in the work of art.
Which is why for years I was bowed to the desk like some monk bowed over his prie-dieu, some dutiful contemplative pivoting his understanding in an attempt to bear his portion of the weight of the world, knowing himself incapable of heroic virtue or redemptive effect, but constrained by his obedience to his rule to repeat the effort and the posture. Blowing up sparks for meagre heat…
Then finally and happily, and not in obedience to the dolorous circumstances of my native place but in spite of them, I straightened up. I began a few years ago to try to make space in my reckoning and imagining for the marvelous as well as for the murderous.
Dear ones, let’s straighten up.
Not to avoid the weight of the world,
but to witness its marvels as we carry.
* It is hard to narrow down Heaney’s work to a few suggested sources! Opened Ground is a wonderful anthology of his poems through 1996; the RTE’s multi-volume set of recordings of Heaney readings allows us to hear his own voice; his version of Beowulf won the Whitbread prize and is now out in an illustrated edition; and the Nobel lecture noted above can be seen in full at their site. Finally, my sister sent me a link to an RTE radio series celebrating Heaney this month, which led me to their amazing archival rabbit hole.

Some days a little storm cloud sits overhead – the coffee is cold and the lines are long and the news is mean and there seems no grace or kindness to be found.
But then the driver coming towards me slows on the road and I spot the reason – an enormous turtle is crossing the way. The facing car stops and I stop and the cars behind us all stop, and I can see each person’s irritation turn to wonder as we watch her progress one plunk at a time across the yellow lines. She’s the biggest turtle we’ve ever seen in these parts and yet she must have been right there beside us all along, in the marshy patch beside the road. No one honks or yells or swerves – we’re just quiet, waiting, watching.
Dear ones, we just need a moment.

I was hiking with my favorite twelve year old in a glorious redwood forest, where we saw trees sprouting from trees sprouting from trees. Upon seeing a largish spruce that was rooted in a fallen redwood, he wondered how many long-ago layers lie beneath our feet, how many millennia were cushioning our every step.
Friends, how lucky we are to stand atop such history – in our forests and mountains and libraries and families and communities.
May we recognize the seeds and sprouts of our time.
May we give thanks for all that came before,
the layers that support our reason,
inspire our faith,
cushion our steps,
and bring us into being.

I took a little art break this week, and one of the museum cards stopped me in my tracks. Instead of “Artist unknown,” it said,
“Artist once known.”
Woah. So much pain and so much honor is packed into those three tiny words, that one momentous edit.
Dear ones, what have we lost that was once known?
In our quiet deep-down moments,
what is known still?

Do you ever wake up in the morning thinking of all the things you wish you’d done the day before?
Yes, every day is a gift, and it is wonderful to live in the moment.
Yet sometimes, those twinges can be teachers.
These thoughts led me down a little carpe diem rabbit hole, where I learned that “carpe” means something more like “harvest” than “seize.”
Well, that’s a horse of a different color!
Harvest does not say, take all you can, squeeze ‘til it hurts, run run run, more more more!
Harvest asks, what is ready? What has come of all we’ve planted and tended? What part of the season has passed? What weather is on the horizon?
Seizing is desperation. Harvest is discernment.
Dear ones,
Today is tomorrow’s yesterday.
Carpe diem.